no 1 noes how i feel right now... i jus feeling veri veri down... de cheerful side tat i always shown... is jus a act now... acting strong ??? maybe...

tireness ??? maybe... stress ??? maybe.. de pressure tat exams is around the corner... is it draining mi... i look sooo tired... i look like a walking undead... no soul... no aim...

haizzz.... wat i wan for now ? is it good grades ? is it having enough to slp ? NOOOO !!! i jus wan a simple thing known as a partner a fren... some1 to accompany mi...

disappointment is feeling up my heart... nt pressure... mere words of support no longer works... i nw realli need is a hug of warmness n a smooch to keep mi walking wif hope... but where is it ??? it is no where around... i cannot sense de supportness... tears of disappointment... every night the tears of disappointment... de tears of missing ur hug ur lips ur pressenses... it is jus wat i realli wanted... nth else... nth else matters anymore...

wild things r running in mind... going out wif frens... having training... rather than supporting mi ???? haizzz... i don noe wat i am tinking... i noe u r busy... taking care of house chores... homework... training... pressure frm ur tennis n coach.. work... supporting urself.. tolerate parents... i noe i hav no right to ask much frm u.. as i noe u r tired.. everytime c u so tired or sad frm parents.. i hope i am dere to take away ur sadness n c u smile... but... haizzz... wishing wishing...

it is jus spinning spinning... wanting to drink my sorrows... wanting to hurt myself... jus wanting to bring de pain elsewhere... it realli hurts in de heart... but yet u don noe... i jus don hav de guts to say it out... i jus don wan to say it out... i rather suffer den c ur tears... tats how i realli felt... maybe i hav depend on u for too much... maybe... i may look strong n able to take hits...

but i am jus a guy... a normal guy tat is weak... nt able to take hits... i jus miss u... my love... i realli hope u r by my side always...