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dis few days nv did much...

fri end work den head down to east coast park.. meet jess den ltr jiayang come.. had dinner at sushi tei.. quite nice environment.. but abit ex.. not worth it for me.. den jiayang drove us home.. but i ask him drop mi at seng kang den take bus back..

gav mom $100 house keeping allowance.. as i promise tat at attachment.. i will giv $100 every month.. den i went to withdraw den giv her..

sat.. wake up.. wan to go swimming.. but got dark clouds.. den nv go.. acc mom go grandma house.. bought her lunch.. took a nap at grandma house.. grandma wan to giv mi hongbao for my attachment n suzhou trip as a sign of good luck.. but i nv take as she nt working n still giv $$$.. long time nv go her house.. den once go she giv $$$.. i where wan to take it.. better keep it for herself to use..

den head home.. relax at home.. den 11plus 12 went out to meet zhe wei.. den fab n matt came along.. jus slack outside.. was abit hungry den ate mac... slack till morning 6plus am.. morning saw dad went out to jog.. den once i home.. mom was up as she going out.. i went to slp at around 7plus am..

woke up around 1pm in de afternoon.. den head out to jog in de afternoon.. abit crazy right ? weather so hot n sunny.. yeah.. sound crazy but i still head out to jog.. around 2plus come back.. relax.. den go bath.. dad nv buy lunch so i nv eat anything for lunch.. nt so hungry.. den i head back to slp.. mom came back be4 i took my nap..

was suppose to head out for dinner.. but mom go cook.. siannn to de max... den ok lo.. jus eat at home.. den after dinner jus watch tv.. around 9pm.. i did de weights.. sweat alot den head to de shower.. around 11 did de weights again.. dad say my arms look abit bigger.. tink is due to muscle ba.. den i watch tv as i couldn't slp..

my mind is spinning again.. i try nt to tink of anything.. i try to supress all my emotion.. but i still couldn't forget u.. i still miss u h.s.. i try to forget u.. i don hav de courage.. i'm trying to avoid everything.. keeping myself busy so as nt to tink so much.. but in de end.. i still tink.. i did cry at times at de middle of de night.. i jus auto cry.. i don noe wat i am doing anymore..